No reply. The only sound came from the television.
“I heard you.”
“This man I just met. He killed himself. He had three kids.”
Carmen finally turned around.
“See, the reason I blamed you was because otherwise—” She stopped, caught her breath.
“I know,” Carmen said softly.
“How come . . .” Loren said, her voice hitching, the tears flowing freely. Her face began to crumble. “How come Daddy didn’t love me enough to want to live?”
“You were his wife. He could have left you. But I was his daughter.”
“He loved you so much.”
“But not enough to want to live.”
“It’s not like that,” Carmen said. “He was in so much pain. No one could save him. You were the best thing in his life.”
“You.” Loren wiped her face with her sleeve. “You let me blame you.”
Carmen said nothing.
“You were trying to protect me.”
“You needed to find blame,” her mother said.
“So all these years . . . you took the hit.”
She thought about Adam Yates, about how much he’d loved his children, about how that hadn’t been enough either. She wiped her eyes.
“I should call them,” Loren said.
Carmen nodded and spread out her hands. “Tomorrow, okay? Right now come here. Come sit with me on the couch here.”
Loren sat on the couch. Her mother scooted over.
“It’s okay,” Carmen said.
She threw the afghan over Loren. A commercial came on. Loren leaned on her mother’s shoulder. She could smell the stale cigarettes, but that was comforting now. Carmen stroked her daughter’s hair. Loren closed her eyes. A few seconds later, her mother began to flick the remote.
“Nothing good on,” Carmen said.
With her eyes still closed, Loren smiled and moved in even closer.
Matt and Olivia flew home that same day. Matt had a cane. He limped, but that wouldn’t last much longer. When they stepped off the plane, Matt said, “I think I should go alone.”
“No,” Olivia said. “We do this together.”
He did not argue.
They took the same Westport exit, pulled down the same street. There were two cars in the driveway this morning. Matt looked at the basketball hoop. There was no sign of Stephen McGrath. Not today.
They headed to the door together. Olivia held his hand. He rang the bell. A minute passed. Then Clark McGrath opened the door.
“What the hell are you doing here?”
Behind him, Sonya McGrath said, “Who is it, Clark?”
Sonya pulled up short when she saw who it was. “Matt?”
“I squeezed too hard,” Matt said.
The grounds were hushed. There was no wind, no cars driving by, no pedestrians. It was just four people and maybe one ghost.
“I could have let go. I was so scared. And I thought Stephen was a part of it. And when we landed, I don’t know anymore. I could have done better. I held on too long. I know that now. I can’t tell you how sorry I am.”
Clark McGrath bit down, his face reddening. “You think that makes it all okay?”
“No,” Matt said. “I know it doesn’t. My wife is pregnant now. So I understand better. But it has to end, right here and right now.”
Sonya said, “What are you talking about, Matt?”
He held up a sheet of paper.
“What is that?” Sonya asked.
When Matt first woke up in the hospital, he had asked Loren to get these for him. He had maybe an inkling of a suspicion—no more than that. But something about Kimmy’s revenge scheme . . . it seemed like something she could never quite pull off on her own. It seemed too focused, too anxious to destroy not only Olivia . . .
. . . but Matt as well.
“These phone records belong to a man named Max Darrow who lived in Reno, Nevada,” Matt said. “He called your husband’s line eight times in the past week.”
“I don’t understand,” Sonya said. She turned to her husband. “Clark?”
But Clark closed his eyes.
“Max Darrow was a police officer,” Matt said. “Once he found out who Olivia was, he would have investigated her. He would have learned that her husband was a notorious ex-con. He got in contact with you. I don’t know how much you paid him, Mr. McGrath, but it just made so much sense. Kill two birds with one stone. Like Darrow’s partner told my wife, he was playing his own game. With you.”
Sonya said, “Clark?”
“He should be in prison,” Clark spat at her. “Not having lunch with you.”
“What did you do, Clark?”
Matt stepped closer. “This is over now, Mr. McGrath. I’m going to apologize one more time for what happened. I know you won’t accept it. I understand that. I’m very sorry about Stephen. But here’s something I think you’ll understand.”
Matt took one more step. The two men were almost nose to nose.
“If you come near my family again,” Matt said, “I will kill you.”
Matt walked away. Olivia stayed for another second. She looked first at Clark McGrath and then at Sonya, as if hammering home her husband’s words. Then she turned away and took her husband’s hand and never looked back.
MATT DROVE AWAY from the McGraths’. For a long time they sat in silence. Damien Rice’s “O” was on the car radio. Olivia leaned forward and flipped it off.
“This feels so weird,” she said.
“We just, what, pick up like nothing happened?”
Matt shook his head. “I don’t think so.”
“We start again?”
Matt shook his head. “I don’t think so.”
“Well, as long as we’ve got that cleared up.”
He smiled. “You know something.”
“We’ll be fine.”
“I won’t settle for fine.”
“Neither will I.”
“We will be,” Olivia said, “spectacular.”
They arrived at Marsha’s house. She ran out to greet them, threw her arms around them both. Paul and Ethan followed. Kyra stayed by the door, her arms folded.
“My God,” Marsha said, “what on earth happened to you two?”