Sex had never been this good before. Her body never tingled in pleasure like this before and she'd never felt so close to losing control like this. Her body felt so good with him inside of her. She ran her fingers through her hair as she slowly rode him, letting the hair drop all around and noted the way he watched her.
She loved the way he looked at her, the way he made her feel and wanted more. She wanted him to hold her while they made love, needed it more than anything. He must have felt the same way. Before she could cover him with her body he was sitting up and wrapping his arms around her.
For a moment she thought he was simply doing it to take over like a few guys had done in the past, but when he made no move to take over she knew he'd done it just to hold her. The realization almost made her cry, but she held it back as she wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him as she slowly rode him.
"I love you, Joe," he said against her lips.
"I love you too, Eric," she said, seconds before he swallowed her screams.
"This is a fantasy for you?" she asked, unable to hide her disbelief.
"Oh yeah," Eric said, pulling her closer.
"Mmmhmmm," he said, pressing a kiss to the back of her neck.
"Yes, now be quiet the good part is coming."
She sighed heavily as she settled back against Eric's chest and settled in to watch the horrible action flick that only a guy could appreciate. She wasn't exactly sure how spooning on her couch and watching a movie that was threatening to put her to sleep counted as a fantasy. They'd done this a thousand times already.
Okay, granted they'd never done this na**d with only a throw blanket covering them from the waist down and Eric's hand cupping her breast, but still. When he told her he wanted to live out his fantasies she was thinking a strip tease, licking whip cream off each other and a hundred other things she'd thought of over the years.
When his lips touched her neck she tilted her head to the side to give him better access. His hand tightened around her breast as he teasingly traced her hard aching nipple with his thumb. She was just about to roll over onto her back so that she could kiss him when she felt the head of his erection slide against her bottom.
"You have no idea how many times I've imagined doing this to you while I held you in my arms," he explained as he slowly pushed inside of her.
"You imagined doing this?" she asked, trying not to moan as he slid all the way home.
"Oh, god," Eric groaned as his orgasm ripped through him. His hands tightened on her hips, holding her in place as he suffered through her body throbbing around his sensitive shaft.
When she dropped face first on the mattress he wasn't far behind. He rolled onto his side and pulled her into his arms. His eyes shot to the alarm clock and he couldn't help but wince. It was after three in the morning and she had to drive up to New Hampshire for her classes in a few hours.
He opened his mouth to tell her he'd drive her, but then stopped himself. He couldn't go with her. She would be gone for three days and they needed that time to figure out what the hell they'd done and what they wanted. Even if she was willing to risk what they had he wasn't sure that he was.
There was no question in his mind that he loved and absolutely adored this woman, but he knew that he was a f**kup when it came to relationships and he couldn't stomach the idea that she would be yet another woman that he'd hurt. He knew ending this after the day and night they spent was risky, but it was still the preferable choice to setting her up for an even bigger disappointment.
He wanted to try for her, but he was scared shitless. What if he f**ked up and she never spoke to him again? Worse, what if they went for the long term and he f**ked up only to have her draw away from him. He would never survive losing her. It didn't matter that having her in his arms would put him out of his misery, he just couldn't risk having her leave him.
Joe groaned as she buried her face in her pillow. "I have to get up in a few hours."
"Get some sleep," he said, pressing a kiss to the back of her head.
"Only if you manage to keep that damn thing leashed," she said and he didn't need to ask what she was talking about.
Even though he'd just made love to her for the.........Well, he wasn't sure how many times they'd made love. All he knew was that his body wanted more even though the damn thing should have fallen off by now. As discretely as he could he pulled his h*ps back, wincing when the damn thing just had to go and caress Joe's backside as he moved away.
Joe let out a long suffering sigh before turning in his arms and hooking her leg over his hip. "Fine. You may have your dirty little way with me," she said, sounding put out.
"You're very generous," he said, gripping her hip as he slid home.
She nodded solemnly as she arched her back to take him deeper. "Very generous."
"I'll see you Sunday night, Joe. We'll talk then," Eric said as she did her best to hide her stunned reaction to the news he'd laid at her feet only moments before.
He wasn't coming with her. For the first time since she could remember, she was doing something completely on her own and he wasn't bugging the hell out of her to tag along. It actually made her a little nervous, not to do something on her own, she was fine with that, but that he didn't insist on coming with her.
Just to test the waters she mentioned that the hotel and school were on a large lake known for its insanely large bass and trout. He didn't even bat an eye as he wished her a safe drive. At first she thought he was dying. Eric never passed up an opportunity to fish, never. Then she realized that he was giving her space so that they could both think over a few things. Of course him explaining that probably saved him from being bitch slapped for pissing her off.
"I think we both need time to figure out what we want and where we should go from here," he explained as he took a step back, already putting distance between them, she noted. "A few days and nights apart will do us both some good."
She didn't need to ask to know that he hoped she would change her mind on this. He didn't want to go forward with this, but he was giving her a chance to make that decision. Last night had been a way to work things out of his system, nothing more. He didn't want to risk losing them by going forward. She understood that even as she inwardly cursed him for being a coward.
What happened between them scared the hell out of her too, but she was willing to take a chance. After waking up in his arms this morning and making love again how could she not? She loved him and she knew that he loved her, but he didn't know how to make this work and she sure as hell wasn't going to push him into it.